My Melt Down Realization
- For Chili Night on Wednesday: Meatless Winter Chili from the newest issue of Rachael Ray magazine. It looks like a good hearty vegetarian option that even the meat eaters will like. Last year I made a great chili with boca burger in it and no one could tell it was meatless! This one features more mushroom and zucchini, and hopefully it’s just as good.
[Funny story – my chili last year would have won the contest, but once my brothers figured out it was mine & therefore was vegetarian, they starting writing in votes that just said “not Clare’s”. Gotta love brothers. ]
- For a Thanksgiving appetizer ( & vegetarian protein) : Angela’s Salt & Vinegar Roasted Chickpeas
- For Thanksgiving sidedish ( & vegetarian protein) : Angela’s Mandarin & Maple Spiced Quinoa
What are you making this week?
I didn’t get home until pretty late, so I just heated up some of the Butternut Squash & Lentil Stew I had frozen from a few weeks ago. Only one of these guys left!! Dessert was my last Deep Chocolate Vitatop.
I didn’t sleep very well last night – my mind was racing with all the things I have to do this week. But I knew that getting up for at least a small work out would keep me sane. I didn’t have the energy for running, but I did 30 minutes on the elliptical, 15 on the stair stepper, and some lunges/squats/bicep curls etc.
- Does it make sense that I didn’t feel like I could run, but I could manage to do 45 minutes of other cardio? I’m sure its just a mental thing that I need to get over, but does anyone else think certain cardio takes more out of them than others?
This is what I was GOING to wear out to dinner in NYC on Friday night. But since I didn’t end up going, I decided to make use of the outfit today….or I was too lazy to pick out a new one. You be the judge.
I’m frustrated that Urban doesn’t sell these BDG skinnies anymore! I get SO much use out of them and would love to get them in other colors. Anyone know how I can do it?
I am also wearing my new sparkly headband from my shopping spree at Forever 21.
I purposely didn’t bring my lunch today because I want to get a massive veggie salad from our cafeteria at work. I don’t have all the stuff to make one at home, so I decided to just buy one. My body is craving the nutrients!
In other news, my Whole Foods got ONE normal flavor of Justin’s PB packets back – Honey Peanut Butter. The rest are still chocolate flavors. But it’s better than nothing, I guess!
So last night I had a melt down.
I was exhausted from a long day at work, still not feeling very well, frustrated with my lack of time to work out, and super stressed about how I was going to fit in everything this week. I don’t mean to complain – I know you guys are all going through the same busy Holiday period as me – but this is my first time dealing with it in the real world!
After spending lots of time finding recipes, making grocery lists, running to the store, and deciding when I was going to have time to cook, I ran into a road block with my mother. She told me that I wasn’t going to be able to cook at certain times, that food needed to be ready earlier than I had expected, and all together just kinda threw my planning for a loop.
On top of that, it started pouring down rain and my grocery bags broke, leaving me sitting in the driveway, soaking wet, with armfuls of apples and tomatoes. It was straight from a movie.
Of course I ended up in tears and shouting things that no good Catholic girl should ever say. And what makes it worse is that I knew I was being unreasonable! The new timing and schedule shouldn’t have been that big of a deal, but I was already so tired and stressed that these changes were the last straw.
But after laying awake thinking about my melt down, I came to a dissapointing realization:
This is primarily a result of my eating issues.
One of the main things I’m stressed out about right now is that I don’t have time to make good workouts a priority. After a weekend of overeating, drinking too much, and not exercising due to illness, I’m feeling a little bit doughy. And knowing that the heavy on the eating, light on the moving trend will continue this week does not help at all.
If I had come into this stressful week feeling great about my body and happy with my nutrition and exercise, none of this would seem that bad. And I hate that. I hate how I let my eating and body issues control other aspects of my life.
But now that I know it, I can take steps to fix it. I am squeezing in little work outs when I can, and also reminding myself that it is not the end of the world. This is a time for family and celebration, and whatever little stomach pudge I think I have right now can be addressed later.
It’ll be fine. It always is.